Wednesday, October 23, 2013

I Don't Want You So Bad


In the news yesterday:


AP: For the first time, more than half of Americans think that marijuana usage should be made legal, according to a Gallup poll released Tuesday.


Fifty-eight percent of Americans now back legalizing marijuana. That represents an 8-point increase from the previous record of 50 percent in 2011, and a 10-point increase from November 2012, just after Colorado and Washington voted for legalization.


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It's about time. Once you near 60% in polls, it's pretty much a done deal. They should also lift all the restrictions on Cuba as well. Those old Cold War attitudes no longer have a use in 2013, regarding pot or that island nation. Hell, Cuba can grow pot, sugar and plant thousands of casinos there like they had in 1959. It'll be a tourist mecca!


Want to know how much pot I bought in my life? One bag. That's it. Most the pot I ever smoked was handed to me via a joint. When I began, I'd pinch my brother's stash. It wasn't because I was a cheap bastard. I did like it occasionally but never felt the need to have it on hand, all the time. Add to that it took a few puffs on it to push me past Pluto for a few hours. I didn't need much. I've known people from my teen years who are daily smokers to this day, at their age of 50.


My teen years was when I smoked it the most, again pilfered from my brother or passed to me by friends. Most times would I smoke it, alone in my room and put the headphones on and play music. I did that till I was 17 when it all came to a complete halt.


The Beatles Abbey Road has the song “I Want You (She's So Heavy).” I was listening to that on a Saturday morning stoned to my gills, in my rocking chair. The last half of the song is just repetitive guitar chords with the addition of the sound of wind, which increases in volume. It's hypnotic even if you're straight. The song finally shocks you as it lulls you into that mesmerizing guitar chant, then stops without warning. Lennon, after recording it, told the engineer just to cut the song...here.  It can jolt you the first time you hear it and only that one time. The next time you listen to it you're expecting the surprising end.


So I'm rocking away, spacing out to the song when I was hit with a realization out of nowhere. It was enough to make me stop rocking and pull off the headphones. From somewhere in the back of my head this thought arose.


“You can't keep doing this.”


“Can't keep doing this” wasn't a warning about getting high, it was a warning about having to finally grow up. I couldn't cocoon myself in childhood for much longer as I was nearing graduation and college was on the horizon. Time to grow up.


After that revelation I could never smoke without becoming utterly paranoid. The two instances, having to grow up and the pot paranoia don't seem connected but perhaps they are. Maybe I tied the two together in my head?


Anyway, I could never smoke the stuff again without it becoming a miserable experience for me. Odd huh? Most people find it enjoyable, I don't.


I don't care what people do with their lives as long as they don't dump in my backyard. I don't see pot as a dangerous substance as beer. Pot doesn't make you want to slide your car into a school bus nor beat your wife as alcohol can. If you tallied up the social damage alcohol has done vs pot, the argument for it's legalization is right there.


So, suck on a bong till it's opaque with white smoke, inhale it and click the pic below to hear the song. I won't stand in your way.
 
 
 

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