Friday, June 9, 2017

Malice Aforethought....at Eight Years Old.

If you're old enough, perhaps you had to deal with bullies, the physical ones, in school or your neighborhood in general. Today they've outlawed it, but thanks to SnapChat, a group of 11 year old girls can reduce to tears one of their peers for wearing the wrong color leggings. Better mousetraps create better mice.


The one I had to contend with, actually most of us in the 3rd grade was Sean Duda, a toe headed Polark who was in the fifth grade. He was two years older than us and a foot taller. He also had that kind of miss-shapen head that might lead one to conclude there was an addition of a 24th chromosome. What he lost in skull shape he made up in bulk. He had freak strength like Lenny in “Of Mice and Men.” Looking back on him, he had nothing but anger in him that was borne from God Knows Where. Perhaps Dad, every older brother, even sister, abused him? So, in order to get that poison out, you beat on others smaller than you. That's my armchair diagnosis.


Due to his being a bully, no one liked him. He'd pick his targets, torture them for a while till they howled in submission. Then he'd feel fulfillment. In addition to that, nearly failing every grade since kindergarten probably didn't help his self worth too much. Low man on the Totem Pole Syndrome.


Sean got ahold of me one day in a sort of ambush. I had been walking down Armistice Blvd when he came up from behind and kept repeating my last name over and over. “M*h*n! M*h*n! M*h*n! What kind of a name is that?” I almost wanted to say what kind of name is “Duda,” as it sounded like it described the person who owned it. Dud. I just kept walking forward hoping this wouldn't lead anywhere as I knew I wasn't going to win anything against this gorilla. No luck. Next thing I knew I was face down on the front lawn of somebody's house.


“Eat it! EAT IT! EAT THE GRASS!” he kept yelling. The funny thing was that he had pushed my face so hard into the lawn that it was impossible to open my jaw. I also was so thick headed then that I wouldn't do it, even though my nostrils were filling with dirt. I kept trying to get his bulk off my body but it was too much. After much shouting from both of us the owner of the house, an older woman, comes out to shout at Duda to stop it.


Duda does, but he's sooo rebellious that he starts yelling at the lady of the house. “You're not his MOM! You CAN'T tell ME what to do!” She responded by telling him it was “her property” and to get out. It took the kid a few minutes to relent and leave.



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Now, I was born with arms far too skinny for use in many street fights. But what I had to do, what I found effective, with duels against kids my age, was to go NUTS on them. I needed to trip a particular circuit breaker. I may lose the fight, but I am going to injure that son of a bitch somehow, someway. After a while, most others learned it wasn't all that profitable to deal with me if my temper was finally lost. When lost, I knew of NO rules in fights...mud in the face, kicking you in the gut...whatever worked. The fight ended with the other in a bit of shock at seeing me wanting their liver on a stick. It was the switch to anger that worked...if I got there.


There was one move I learned from my brother. I learned it because that prick used it on me! He knew where your adenoids were located, which is just behind the ear, that soft spot in your skull and he'd press his finger into it as hard as he could. The pain is exquisite!


So, in one tussle with Chuck, I managed to jam my finger into his adenoids and the screaming was wonderful! That until he lost it and sunk his fist into my nose. The point being? No fight was going to have me lose 100%. Nope...I'll get my pound of flesh somehow.


But all of that was worthless against Duda. I was outmatched entirely by his age, size and mental instability.



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After that tussle with Duda on the front lawn, I seethed for days. I mean SEETHED. I wanted that bastard to get hit by a truck, train...a group of apes carrying bricks. As many 8 year old boys will attest, fantasy is great and mine was seeing Duda dipped in molten lead. These fantasies went on but they began to change into a rational, cool-headed plan for revenge.


We kids in that neighborhood loved street hockey. We all had hockey sticks and if we didn't have one personally, we looked around and one would come up. All of them probably said “Bobby Orr Special” on them as he was a local hero then. Some of you are saying..”Bobby Who?” Aghh! I'm old!


If you take the blade off the end of a hockey stick, you have one hell of a strong piece of wood. We boys had those too and we'd turn them into guns, swords, canes, tai chi warfare sticks or whatever we imagined. These sticks were nearly indestructible! Because there were so many of them lying around in 1973, you could pick one off the street or garbage nearly anywhere in this neighborhood.


While walking to school one day, I passed a house on Bloomfield St and sticking out of the can was a nice looking hockey stick sans the blade. I examined it then tossed it in the narrow passage of a garage and line of thick yew bushes, knowing that it would be there to pick up and take home.


I walked home and forgot about it entirely. Till a few days later when I got an idea.


One thing I did noticed at times, and this was a survival tactic for us younger kids, was to know where Duda was if he was around. I began to notice he'd walk the same path as me on the way home, for about half of it and I worried that he'd find my hockey stick. So while he was busy, about 50 feet back, I stepped off the sidewalk and kicked the stick even further into the passage.


I began to dream of way to get him again and I thought of whacking him with the hockey stick. But I couldn't do that one on one. He'd be momentarily shocked, due to his having 3 brain cells. He'd come around then use the stick on me. I needed a smarter idea.


Here's what I came up with. I figured if I ran ahead my way home one day, I'd get to that well tree'd and hidden passageway by the garage before he did. I could ambush him there. Ahh...another problem arose. Identification. I can't have him know it was me that nailed him. He'd plan his own revenge and it would be merciless. I needed a disguise.


Back in the early 70's, we kids had a jacket called Lumberjack coats. They were cheap, bought at Ann & Hope and looked like a very heavy, rug insulated flannel shirt. I had one. Mine was autumn colored with browns, reds and oranges. I noticed that you could turn it inside out and only the rug insulation side would be exposed. I also had a few ski mask for winter. Hey! It's all coming together!





I got to the passageway way before anyone else did as I ran nearly the whole way there. I took off my coat, reversed it, took off my glasses and put them in my pocket and then pulled out the ski mask. I then got the hockey stick, crouched and waited. Kid after kid came by but none were Duda. Then finally, there he was! He was walking alone, lost in simple thoughts as he approached. I got up, went as close to the end of the yews as I could and I just tightened up, wound up like a bear trap. I could see him approaching through gaps in the yew and then...then..wait...NOW!


I stepped out like a batter on home base and I swung like I was going to crack this one out of the park. I probably had perfect from too. I knew enough not to crank him in the face so I aimed at his gut with all of my 8 year old arms.



WHACK!



I didn't stay long enough. I darted back down the passage way that opened into the next neighbor's yard. By the time I hit the opposite street, Hatfield, I had reversed my coat back to it's normal side and had pulled off the mask. The stick I shoved into another bush to be claimed later. I tried to calm down from that and look as normal as possible and look like just another kid walking home from school.  Hmmm..this sounds like Micheal Corleone when he hit McCluskey and Sollozzo, all planned and executed.



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Duda hadn't shown up for school for three days and on the fourth, he finally did, with his Dad, just outside of our class with Mr. Collette, the principal. Our teacher, Mrs. Keough, goes out there to find out what's up and we can overhear the conversation. Duda's Dad was incensed that someone from this school ambushed his kid and ended up at our class because Duda fingered me. I guess Duda had seen just enough of me to whittle down the possible suspects. All three come into the classroom and then I'm asked to show my coat that I wore. To tell you the truth, I wasn't worried. I showed them. The Principal Collette then says to Duda's Dad, “It's a multi-colored coat...not solid brown like your son says.”


“But it's brown on the inside!” the moron retorts.


Collette looks askance at the kid and Dad when he heard this. Obviously an 8 year old doesn't have the frame of mind to turn it inside out when committing crimes. I stood there with this look of confusion on my face, just to add to the principal's doubt.


Duda's Dad has to say something, “Mr. Collette..someone has been going after my son and I KNOW it has to be one of the students here!”


Collette, who seemed annoyed that his time was being wasted says again, “THAT coat is multi-colored and your son said it was someone in a BROWN coat....”


They both left our room and I sat there with this beautiful, shit eating grin.


I had found out later why the Dad was involved. I had hit the kid so hard that I didn't leave just a red mark nor a raised red welt but a scary, half foot long deep bruise across his abdomen.


A week or so later, the same Duda kid comes to our recess period to beat on some other kids. He had one pinned in the corner of the school building, whomping on him.  Mrs. Keough sees this and runs over to stop it. We then ask her why he wasn't in class and she wondered the same thing as he was in 5th and this was a 3rd grade recess. The kid we found out routinely would wander off when he wanted too and torment others, go to the store or go home early.


Within a few months of this, we found out Duda wasn't in our school anymore. He had screwed up his grades, social standing and his misbehavior was culminating to his being thrown out of Potter's school. He was then sent to...gasp! Fallon School! Fallon School back then was where they stuck all the dimwitted ones. Fallon was the last stop before they shipped you to the Ladd Center in Exeter.


I never saw him again.


I don't regret one single thing I did.


This was 44 years ago and I fully admit my actions. You're the first to know!

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